The last few days have definitely had their ups and downs. I have felt like I will not see a day that I feel well rested again. I have felt like I will not ever have a moment where I am not preoccupied with what comes next in taking care of our little girl. It has felt like Chad and I are going to coexist right along side each other and never be able to feel close and like a couple again. The downs feel like they will last forever.

But the ups are walking in to see the cutest little girl in the world and knowing she belongs to us. We get to see her grow and change. We get to have a family. I could not have imagined that starting our family would be so taxing but I also could not have imagined it being so joyous. The hard part right now is remembering that the lows—when things are overwhelming and it feels like Chad and I will never be able to be close agian and we’ll never have a moment for ourselves again—aren’t what lasts forever. Lucky for us the high moments do. It may not feel like a high all the time—or most of the time—but the really rewarding wonderful things are the ones we get to take with us and treasure for the rest of our lives and ever after that.