I was able to get a great OB doctor in Murray when I suspected I was pregnant. Right off they explained that although the doctor was fully covered by our insurance the hospital he delivers at and where they are located were not. They did however, assure me that we would be adopted in and all of my costs would be covered. They gave us a contact person to work with after we received a bill from the hospital.

Besides a few longer than my patience allowed waits and their no children in the office policy I was really very pleased with the doctor and his nurse. But when we began getting bills in the mail from the lab, the ultrasound, and the fetal specialist they sent us to in house, we began to get pretty frustrated. I left messages with the contact person they had given us and Chad spoke with her a few times and tried to work with her and contact her week after week. It was ridiculous. Finally, less than 6 weeks before my due date she got back to Chad and basically told him that we would just have to wait until we received bills to discover what we were and were not covered for. What!? We have good, expensive insurance, we shouldn’t be paying a bunch out of pocket on top of that.

So within a week we found a midwife that works out of a hospital we are fully covered for. Chad had to battle with the other office staff to get my records and help me switch. The nurse of my original doctor was really helpful but the other staff were defensive and pretty rude. It was so stressful. I got an appointment with the midwife almost right away and she was fantastic! I couldn’t wait to have her help during delivery.

I have been so content lately. I really feel like life is full of so many blessings. Even with stressors abounding I have been able to put things in perspective and remain calm. I feel like I have learned so much over the last few years. I have learned I do not need to apologize–I am doing good things. My degree may *only* be a general studies major but I am loving it! I am learning to deal with anxiety and stress. When things start to pile up I can decide what is most important and not be disappointed when I can only do so much the way I would like. Perfection to me is really transforming its meaning in my head to being complete not flawless. I am learning I am capable of really great things but that those things need not define my worth. I am learning to appreciate what people think of me but not to put too much stock in their opinions. Hopefully all this peace and contentment will not be too easily swept away by the life changing events we have coming up!

We are trying so hard to teach Eden about good coping mechanisms. We have to keep learning them even as adults.

So much of the happiness I have now seems to be a direct result of the things I am learning about life and about being me… Those areas of growth really seem to be correlated with Chad being with me. I went back and read our wedding website. When I talked about Chad it says, “Just being around him elevates me.” I had no idea how true that was and would be. I am not a big believer in soul mates or only one perfect match for romantic relationships, but I can honestly say that having Chad as my husband makes it obvious that Heavenly Father knows exactly what I need in a spouse.

Chad and I were asked to speak this last Sunday on the Importance of the Priesthood. I was already overwhelmed with my school projects so did not have high expectations for my talk. I ended up finding a few points that I was impressed with. Even so my outline was very flexible and allowed me to elaborate or not. When I got up to speak I was pretty pleased to be the second to last speaker. I enjoy speaking but it was nice to know that I could go as short or long as I wanted. I did not speak as long as I normally do. I am so glad I wrapped things up!

Chad is so much more interesting to listen to than myself! It’s so much more fun to hear someone else speak than to speak yourself! 🙂 Chad prepared a fantastic talk. I highly doubt people learned as much, or enjoyed his talk as much as I did. I was so impressed with the points he shared, and so proud that he was mine. I learn so much from him; it is so fun!